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May 23rd

[moondregs]

[ He doesn’t bother with preamble. She’ll know exactly what he means. ]

It should’ve been me, Ianthe! You know it should’ve been me! Iggy didn’t deserve that! Of all the people … ! It doesn’t make any sense!

[princess_of_ida]

[It was only a matter of time. Ianthe considered responding via text. Had it been anyone other than the ones she loved, she would have. But it was Junpei.]

No one deserved it. Not even you.

[She sounded tired. Quiet. There was no fight in her voice. Why fight the accusations.]

Iggy once said that if someone had to die, he'd rather it be him. That's why I chose him. A sacrifice had to be made.

[moondregs]

Nobody was also an option! She's not our ally Ianthe! She isn't going to actually help you! She's just going to ... use you! As long as she can! Squeeze what she can out of you! Then use you as a step stool when the time comes! You know who actually cared about you? Who was actually trustworthy? Iggy!

[princess_of_ida]

I could be in the castle, right now, learning from her. I could have stayed and learned from her, being taught Resurrection. She gave me that. She allowed me to watch her resurrect Iggy.

[Has anyone else been given that opportunity?]

And she will still teach me. There is no other course for me. I have to learn Resurrection. I have to get to my sister.

[moondregs]

[ It's so frustrating. He wants to kick something. So he sends a roll of bandages flying, watching it hit the wall and bounce off pointlessly. ]

Stupid! You're being so stupid! You're going to go and get yourself killed instead of bringing anyone back! And then the rest of us who care about you will have to live with the fact nothing we said could stop you! You'll march right into the slaughterhouse just like Iggy! A dumb lamb just like the rest of us!

[princess_of_ida]

[Welcome Ianthe's Sunk Cost Fallacy.]

It doesn't matter what happens to me. It never has. I'll pay whatever cost I must for Corona. I'm nothing without her, one fractured half of a whole.

If I die, I die. I'll get back up. I'm going to die. A lot. If you want to kill me, you can. It's what I deserve.

[moondregs]

Killing you won’t fix anything! And you’re not going to get your sister back! You’re just going to burn the bridges you do have here for nothing! And if you’re telling me none of us mean anything … then fine! You shouldn’t have lied to us that you cared in the first place!

[princess_of_ida]

[Her voice finally rose and took on its normal edge.]

Don't you fucking tell me i won't get my sister back. Don't talk about things you don't understand. She's out there. I hear her all the fucking time, calling to me, pleading that I save her. John's going to kill her, kill everyone, and I won't let her die.

[And then her voice broke, no tears shed, but with the deep loneliness of someone that knew she was going to be hated.]

If none of you mattered, if i didn't care, I'd be in the castle. I'd have just disappeared. I'd be out of reach of the vengeance coming for me. I walked out of that castle.

Even a monster like me can love.

[moondregs]

I don’t know why you bothered. You should’ve stayed there.

[princess_of_ida]

Maybe you're right.

[Goodbye, Junpei. It was nice having a little brother while it lasted. But nothing ever lasted for Ianthe. Twenty years of sacrificing herself. She didn't know any other way.]