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[princess_of_ida]

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[princess_of_ida]

I'm positive it's not just an alliance. And, as you've irritatingly told me while taking the piss out of me, two things can be true at the same time. Also if he hurts you and it's not just your projection, I'll turn him inside-out. Pretty sure he knows that.

Truthfully, Alina, I'm being all understanding because I'm being Ianthe the Friend right now. We were friends first.
I've got the other Ianthe shoved in a box right now where she can have her temper tantrum about getting to see you less without ruining anything. I'm not trying to guilt trip you or anything. I'm happy for you, and I know my place.

Besides, more banya time makes me happy. So in some way it's a win-win.

[sunmon]

You don't have to split yourself into different boxes for me.
I like when you're honest.
Even when it doesn't feel good.

[princess_of_ida]

I'm not doing it for you; I'm doing it for me. I know it's stupid to get upset over you and your husband sharing a room. I want you to feel good and safe. I wish I made you feel that way, but I get it. I do. Doesn't change how I feel or what I'll do for you, or sometimes more importantly what I won't do because of you.

I'm just going to have to find a way to deal with you staying over less and to ignore my sister telling me that you're only coming over because Nikolai went to Quentin. And I will find a way.

[sunmon]

Maybe Nikolai will only go to Quentin because I've gone to spend time with you.
No.
This is stupid.
All of it's stupid.
I mean, do you only invite me over because you're not busy with Gilia?

[princess_of_ida]

It is stupid. That's why I put it in the box! Feelings are fucking dumb and irrational. I know it's not true.

[She just knew her god damm place.]

And no, when I invite you over I want you. Gilia doesn't factor into that at all. You both have open invitations.

[sunmon]

I don't mean your feelings are dumb.
I understand.
I feel it too.
I hate it.

Look. I can't give you what you've given me.
It wouldn't be fair to him.
But what if I give you a different kind of open invitation?
You can call me over. Whenever you need. I'll come.

[princess_of_ida]

That is a very dangerous offer to make to an insatiable creature. Moderation is not a great strength of mine, and I always want you.

[sunmon]

I didn't say want, did I?
I said need.

[princess_of_ida]

[Very good catch. A lot less wiggle room with 'need'. Boundaries. She'd told Alina boundaries were necessary.]

Need. Understood.

[sunmon]

I know how you work.

[princess_of_ida]

Can you you really blame a girl for trying?

[sunmon]

Not in the slightest.
I appreciate it, in fact.

[princess_of_ida]

I promise I'll only make up a superfluous need a couple times. Pair it with a bad pick up line.

Jokes aside, thank you for giving me this.

[sunmon]

Thank you for being happy for me.

[ they're both trying. that's worth something, isn't it? ]

[princess_of_ida]

[It's a complicated dance with them and Nikolai. If they worked at it, maybe they'd eventually stop stepping on toes.]

Is there anything you'd like for the room that I can pick up for you? I can get just about anything.

Oh, and if you want to keep a change of clothes and a nightgown at my place, there's a spot in the wardrobe for you. Just to have on hand.

[sunmon]

I'll bring an extra set to the banya tomorrow. I can walk you back to your house, after.

[ it seems like a good concession, a way to reassure ianthe that she's still here. ]

I think we have what we need. I stowed Genya's things finally, and that made some room.
I don't know.
I don't snore, do I?
He'd probably know already. If I did.

[princess_of_ida]

Only occasionally and it's less of a snore and more of a light nasal purr.
I think it's cute.

[sunmon]

Cute things can become annoying when you're around them too much.

[princess_of_ida]

Anything can become annoying when you're around them too much. Don't waste energy on this. You could snore like a banshee and it wouldn't wake him. You're fine. He's not a light sleeper like I am.

[sunmon]

I guess that's true.
What about morning breath?
That's going to get old.

[princess_of_ida]

He'll have it too. Are you going to hold it against him?

[sunmon]

It's not the same.

[princess_of_ida]

Do enlighten me as to why your mouth bacteria is any different than his?

[sunmon]

Because even if I wake up one day and I'm tired of how his breath smells he's still him.
And I'm just me.

[princess_of_ida]

I fail to see the problem here. 'Just you' is all he wants. All I want.

I know you have a hard time accepting that, but it's the truth. He'd say the same thing - morning breath, cute snores, drool, and all.

Okay maybe I watch you a little too much while you're sleeping, but in my defense I can only sleep like five hours at most, not consecutive, and I'm too comfortable spooning you to get up to go read. So I watch your pretty face when all that tension you hold between your brows is relaxed. Is that creepy? It's not meant to be.